Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Life. Unedited {Tuesday 10}

So. I know it has been a while. Let me start off by saying I didn't dive off a cliff or disappear into thin air. Life just became to much to handle. Even as I write this I am wondering if I am doing the right thing.

Moving forward is always hard. Making decisions involves a lot of time and prayer. A few weeks ago I wrote about how I may take a break from teaching. This is huge for me, because teaching has been my life for 4 years. Education has been my life for 8 years. This is a huge leap of faith. My heart is breaking with every step I take.

I'm not any closer to a decision. Combined that with some personal stuff... My world is upside down.

I know I am at a point where I have two roads to take. The one I am currently on. Or the unknown. Right now I am looking to at the unknown. I long to figure out who I am or where I am meant to be.

Working with kids is so important to me. It is my entire heart. I have some of the best students this year. Just the thought of leaving them brings me to tears. Just when something isn't right- no amount of love can make it right.

So here I am. At the fork in the road. Do I go left? Or do I go right? Standing still isn't an option anymore. Life is not going to get away from me anymore. I want to look 30 in the face and say you don't own me. You won't define me.

Can I be that strong? Confident? Secure? How do I become that person? The person I want to be in my heart?

I guess I will find out in time.

I know this isn't a typical Tuesday 10 post... But I wanted to get one up this week. It's been a while!


  1. Change can be really difficult sometimes, especially when you aren't sure if it's the right thing! Hang in there, it will all make sense eventually. I was in dire need of a Tuesday10 - glad to see the linky up this week!

  2. Change sucks sometimes but usually you are changing something to make something else in your life better! Hoping that all is good - keep your chin up!

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