So. I know it has been a while. Let me start off by saying I didn't dive off a cliff or disappear into thin air. Life just became to much to handle. Even as I write this I am wondering if I am doing the right thing.
Moving forward is always hard. Making decisions involves a lot of time and prayer. A few weeks ago I wrote about how I may take a break from teaching. This is huge for me, because teaching has been my life for 4 years. Education has been my life for 8 years. This is a huge leap of faith. My heart is breaking with every step I take.
I'm not any closer to a decision. Combined that with some personal stuff... My world is upside down.
I know I am at a point where I have two roads to take. The one I am currently on. Or the unknown. Right now I am looking to at the unknown. I long to figure out who I am or where I am meant to be.
Working with kids is so important to me. It is my entire heart. I have some of the best students this year. Just the thought of leaving them brings me to tears. Just when something isn't right- no amount of love can make it right.
So here I am. At the fork in the road. Do I go left? Or do I go right? Standing still isn't an option anymore. Life is not going to get away from me anymore. I want to look 30 in the face and say you don't own me. You won't define me.
Can I be that strong? Confident? Secure? How do I become that person? The person I want to be in my heart?
I guess I will find out in time.
I know this isn't a typical Tuesday 10 post... But I wanted to get one up this week. It's been a while!